Wednesday, October 1, 2008


I ate an ENTIRE medium pepperoni pizza for dinner, along with almost a liter of Diet Coke, and half a thing of CinnaStix. What the hell? Am I trying to kill myself?

I'm not trying to sound self-defeating, but seriously, what was up with my eating ALL of that food? I think it has a lot to do with my feeling pretty bummed out the past couple of days. I am soooo grateful I took a weekend off to be with Dustin, but I've been struggling to keep up with my work this week (I'm miserably behind). I've been skipping the "pink pill" week of my BC, which I know isn't supposed to change anything (considering that the 'period' you have on pink pill week isn't even a true period), but I swear, I'm PMSing. And also, I miss Dustin. A lot. In fact, I'll venture into pathetic-land and say that I'm miserable without him here with me. I can't believe we have to struggle through another 15 months of this mess. Seriously, I've never been glad for time to go by so quickly, but the sooner we all get to December 2009, the better.

Self-pity diatribe ceased.


Inny said...

I can totally relate. I just got off a internet video conversation with my boyfriend during which all I could say was over and over again: "I miss you". College/grad school years can be somewhat solitary. I wish there wasn't a whole ocean between us. Still, I tell myself that even though there's a lot of time before I see him again, days will fly by. We tell each other we want to spend our whole lives together, so a few months is not that much compared to a lifetime. Good luck with your work and don't beat yourself up too much over one bad choice, just try to make the next one a good one.

Crystal said...

Long distance relationships can really take a toll on you but your relationship is strong so you both will pull through this. My BF and I started a relationship apart and had to do the long distance thing for a year before we moved in together. You'll make it through okay and it will all be worth it in the end.

Karyn said...

I hear you on hating to be away from your love.

So you messed up with eating way too much....pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back on the path to health and growth.

You can do it!

Kathleen said...

It's ok, honey. I've realized my problem isn't how much I eat, but WHAT I eat. I recently found that Earth Fare carries chocolate gelato. Houston, we have a problem.
And I don't even have a boyfriend. Maybe that's an issue for me too.

Anonymous said...

Awww... I so want to give you a hug right now! =(